Deleted all my old posts cause they were so.. stupid LOOL. Like posts from my past relationships and even one that some didn't even know about. I'm assuming no one is ever gonna read this and it's just something I can type out to. Especially on days like this. Brothers are out and I'm stuck at home. I'm so fuckinnn' bored. She was supposed to come over today but plans changed that, which sucks. Hm, let's see, what can I talk about?
Oh man, after how long.. So, me and her have been friends since time. And it wasn't until this summer or maybe even a little before the summer did me and her get close. We talked and shit. We were in the phase where you guys like each other so you talk. Yeah. Then we broke it off for reasons I don't wanna say. But, since then I haven't really gotten over her. LOL, I may seem like a loser typing this but I gotta tell someone. Or something. So yeah, haven't lost feelings so I decided just be there for her. And I guess I was there for her. We became more than friends. Bestfriends, haha. Now we're talking again. and what better than to like the girl who just happens to be your bestfriend? Nothing, I believe. I can talk to her about anything and she knows she can do the same. I haven't been this happy in a while to tell you the truth. I'm trying harder in school and in ball. In the past when I had a girl it'd be fuck school and fuck ball I'm all about the girl. So you might be wondering WTH would I be doing better? Because, I wanna show my parents that having a girl isn't gonna hurt anything else I do. If anything she makes me better. I wanna be with her. I don't wanna be like the other guys who just leave. Fuck no. I made that a point since day one. So why can't everyone just back the fuck up? Like, let me love the girl. Let me like the girl. Let us be together. Cause what's really the problem? If you can simply give me a legit reason as to why I can't or shouldn't be with her then please, do tell me. Cause then I wouldn't be all stressed out about this thing. I have what I want and I'm not tryna let it all go because pf something that doesn't even have a logical reasoning behind it. I want to be with her. I'm working to be with her. If anyone says otherwise then suck my mothaafuckin dick. Everyone needs to relax. Personally, I don't think my mom and dad would care. Idk bout my mom but my dad won't. I don't get why me and her being together is such a big problem. If the people who judge took a step back for a second and saw that she makes me happy and hopefully I make her happy why take that away? If someone was to take away something that makes you happy and something that no matter what can always turn your bad days into good ones.. how would you feel? It makes no sense to me to do that. To take us away from each other.. It really doesn't. And yeah love is a big word, but if someone is willing to stick around even after a breakup and then work to get back together. If those two people can do it then yeah.. I guess I love her. Yeah, straight up. I do. This rant is done, I'm gonna take a nap. Took like an hour to put my thoughts into words LOL.
Whatever happens, I'm always here.
